Read all about it

You have no idea how much I can related to the lyrics,
“I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid
They can read all about it, read all about it.”
Everytime I see you, I want to tell you how I feel so badly but I don’t want to ruin anything so I keep my mouth shut. I keep telling myself that I’ll get over my feelings for you or at least I will ge to the phase where I am going to get used to the feelings but I’m not there yet. The words are soooo close to bursting out of my mouth. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep it in for. I wanted to tell your good friends but I managed to keep it in. I wish things were easier and feelings are just an on/off switch. That would make life easier but I don’t know. I just noticed your hair these past few days and I’ll admit that I’m obsessed with it. You look so nice with that shaggy hair. There’s so many things I want to tell you but I keep it in so things won’t be awkward. I wonder if there will ever be a day when everything comes out. The last time I managed to keep my feelings secret from a guy for more than 4 years. I don’t know if I can keep it in for that long this time around. 😖