What Is To Become Of Us?

It's crazy how from being strangers, you becomes friends to best friends and then drift apart. I'm scared to lose you. It felt good knowing I had you to turn to no matter what the problem was. It went from talking in school and chatting almost everyday to chatting once in a couple weeks. And it's always me initiating the conversations. To be honest, I fear the future. I fear not being close to you anymore. I know everything happens for a reason and I hope this one happened for a really good reason. I should have seen it coming though but I don't know. Maybe I was that blind. Good thing is I don't think I like you like that anymore? Well at least now I don't. Just know that no matter what, I will always care and be protective over you. Bye for now.

P.S: You might not know who you are, blur little thing. 😁

Times Have Changed

The main reason this blog even exists is for my school project and if this happened a couple years back, I would have been incredibly excited to write this blog with how much I post on social media sites and all. Now, I guess I've learned how to keep things to myself and only let out certain stuff. Thus, it's been a little harder to write blog entries but I'll try my best and hopefully it turns out well. I'm hoping this blog will remain active for a long time. 😀 Also, thanks to those who've read my first entry. I appreciate it.

838 days

It's been 838 days since you left and no doubt, it is getting easier to accept the fact that you're never coming back. I always wonder how you would feel about me going so far away from home to study; approx. 1000km. I have sooooo many stories to tell you about what's been happening the past 2 years and more. I still go through days where I just have breakdowns just like the first day. I've always imagined having you around till I get married, have kids and all. Of course, I expected you to be here when I finished my SPM. It was a shock to me and still is. Never would I have thought that you would go at such a young age. That was the first time I ever skipped an exam in secondary school, knowing how I can never re-sit a test but I knew I wanted to be there to send you off to your resting place and it's a decision I will never ever regret. Well, that's about it for now I guess. I love you and miss you loads, my guardian angel. Like how I end every letter I type to you on my phone, with the two emojis. [angel baby] [green heart]